Sweet little Emma is suddenly 2 weeks old. The hormones hit me full force today and I have spent a good majority of the day crying. I think the Pediatrician thinks that I am crazy. Maybe. It couldn't possibly be that I cried through Emma's entire 2 week check up. Why? This morning as I bathed her I noticed that her little belly button is close to falling off and it hit me like a ton of bricks. This could quite possibly be the last time I go through the motions of having a newborn...and it is eating me alive. Five c-sections is risky business and my body has about had it. This pregnancy and delivery were tough. I am blessed with 5 healthy kids to call mine and for that I am grateful. Emma is a great baby. She nurses like a champ and today she weighed in at 8 pounds 4 ounces which means she has gained an entire pound in the last two weeks. She is calm and content as long as she is changed an fed. She is adored by the entire family but especially by me. I snuggle her as often as I can and kiss her sweet little lips. I am not annoyed by her cries or the lack of sleep. These are moments I took for granted with my other babies knowing that there would be another newborn to snuggle down the line. Every child is a miracle. They each come with their own little personalities and special gifts. I think Emma has made me realize how much I love being a mother.
Happy Valentines Day! My poor husband kind of got the shaft this year. No fancy dinner or sappy gift. Not even a card. Poor guy. I texted him this afternoon with a short I love you. For this year it is going to have to do. I am a pretty lucky lady. Doesn't this picture melt your heart. He is the greatest husband and dad that anyone could ask for. Today (and every day) I love him!
This sweet lady has taught me everything that I know. She rolls with the punches. She is passionate and sweet. She loves me and my kids. She is my rock. I love my mom and and grateful for her every day but especially in the last few weeks. I am pretty sure I was sent to the greatest family. Love you mom!
Yes that is me, on my Birthday. A little swollen but surrounded by the little ones that I live for. They are adjust well and little Emma and I are certainly feeling their love!
Last but not least, I love this little gal. So far she is calm and doesn't seem to mind the craziness that surrounds her. I love the smell of newborns. They are so sweet and innocent. My little Emma has made our family feel complete.
I love, love, love being a wife, a mother, and a daughter. I have been overwhelmed by each of these responsibilities this week. I am surrounded by wonderful people who make me who I am. Life is good.
It is after midnight now and I can't sleep. In just a few hours we will welcome another spirit into the world and into our home. The past 9 months have been a mixture of emotions. Some weeks have flown by and others have been slow. Our little family has been busy and the kids have all grown up. I worry about how Summer, my "baby" for a few more hours, will adjust to a new little one in her space. There are nights that I lay in bed and wonder if I am doing enough as a mother. Do I exercise patience? Do I set a good example? Do I enjoy the little things? Do I make them feel loved? Can I handle FIVE kids? What I do know is that tonight I am grateful to have a chance to carry another child. I am grateful for a husband who never questioned me once when I told him there was another spirit waiting to join our family. I have 4 (almost 5) healthy and happy kids, a supportive husband, fabulous family, and an army full of people in our ward and neighborhood who love us. Tonight I feel like a pretty lucky lady. Life is good. I am happy and I can't wait to have all my kids around me tomorrow as we start this adventure together.