Life As We Know It...

It is after midnight now and I can't sleep.  In just a few hours we will welcome another spirit into the world and into our home. The past 9 months have been a mixture of emotions.  Some weeks have flown by and others have been slow.  Our little family has been busy and the kids have all grown up.  I worry about how Summer, my "baby" for a few more hours, will adjust to a new little one in her space.  There are nights that I lay in bed and wonder if I am doing enough as a mother.  Do I exercise patience?  Do I set a good example? Do I enjoy the little things?  Do I make them feel loved?  Can I handle FIVE kids? What I do know is that tonight I am grateful to have a chance to carry another child.  I am grateful for a husband who never questioned me once when I told him there was another spirit waiting to join our family.  I have 4 (almost 5) healthy and happy kids, a supportive husband, fabulous family, and an army full of people in our ward and neighborhood who love us.  Tonight I feel like a pretty lucky lady.  Life is good.  I am happy and I can't wait to have all my kids around me tomorrow as we start this adventure together.